09 September 2007
Cindy, if there was one person that struck me most for the longest time I've stayed in high school it would be her. For three years I was constantly disturbed in thoughts by her smiling face. If ever I will find out what love is then I'll tell you if I love her. But I had feelings for her, I hust don't have a word for it.
As I remember well, she has been so influential in my life that because of her I tried to write poems. I tried for I want to express my little infatuation. So with a few lines here and there I wrote "Ikaanim sa Kanan". She was an angel to my eyes and I could use no words to describe even the least of her. I tried anyway, hence she made me a writer.
She by some (extremely blind and stupid) people's standards ain't drop dead beautiful. As a song goes "hindi ka naman ganun ka ganda diba?". Unfortunately it was enough for me to fall for this diamond in the raw. But timid as I am, I never got the chance to befriend her, I know that's stupid and idiotic, I tell that to myself everyday.
As I remember well, she has been so influential in my life that because of her I tried to write poems. I tried for I want to express my little infatuation. So with a few lines here and there I wrote "Ikaanim sa Kanan". She was an angel to my eyes and I could use no words to describe even the least of her. I tried anyway, hence she made me a writer.
She by some (extremely blind and stupid) people's standards ain't drop dead beautiful. As a song goes "hindi ka naman ganun ka ganda diba?". Unfortunately it was enough for me to fall for this diamond in the raw. But timid as I am, I never got the chance to befriend her, I know that's stupid and idiotic, I tell that to myself everyday.
On my high school sophomore year, tormented by the loss of my father the year before, I was kinda psycho, okay, really psycho. I had a spur of agressiveness that was so off the hook I...er..."accidentally" told her I loved her, in class. Well, she did reply three seconds later in her own spur saying these words "Love is the love of two persons to one another, not the love of one alone." I melted to a lump of shit immersed in a solution of vinegar and water.
Did I cry? I did, a good number of times, a good amount of tears did flow from my eyes. Was I angry? No, not at her at least I was mainly angry at myself, for letting this happento me. For letting myself be so much like shit. All I wanted now is for her to understand how bad i feel, and how much i love her. And my poetry is my words. I gave her a compilation. Whereas in front I wrote the words "then let it not be true love, let it be a feeling of sadness that my soul canot resist" Hoping it would mean something to her.
No ending, wait for the next part tinatamad na ako magtayp
Did I cry? I did, a good number of times, a good amount of tears did flow from my eyes. Was I angry? No, not at her at least I was mainly angry at myself, for letting this happento me. For letting myself be so much like shit. All I wanted now is for her to understand how bad i feel, and how much i love her. And my poetry is my words. I gave her a compilation. Whereas in front I wrote the words "then let it not be true love, let it be a feeling of sadness that my soul canot resist" Hoping it would mean something to her.
No ending, wait for the next part tinatamad na ako magtayp
3 things said:
nasa momentum na ko,.. sabay sabi "No ending, wait for the next part tinatamad na ako magtayp"
heheniwey, nabasa ko na ang layb nito!! woohooO!
galing mo,,
ep ko. tsk,
tuloy mo dapat...
:P
blimey mate! there were several stupid events, and can't wait for the next part to see more,,, errr, stupid events.. joke lang.
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frustrated? i don't think so, but i can't resist the idea of your frustration.
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