12 February 2008
(imported from one my secret identity blogs)
I am a Pilipino. I don’t know why Bathala chose to make me a Pilipino but since I am, then here I am. I can’t even imagine I am writing a blog in english, I love being Pilipino, and I hate the idea that all most of our History books here tell the story of Pilipinas like this; it starts with a very brief story about Pilipinas before white men decided to play God and colonize my country, then every bit of our history is divided into four parts. First the Spanish occupation which lasted 300 years, the American occupation which lasted 40 years, the Japanese occupation lasting 4 years, the so-called FREEDOM years, the Marcos Regime and Martial Rule, and the present.
I hate it, I am going to be racist and say the SPANISH destroyed our culture, the AMERICANS practically buyed us out of a corrupt revolutionary general (who sadly became our first President. He also ordered the murder of Andres Bonifacio, the hero of the revolution against the Spanish) and brainwashed my people, the JAPANESE raped my country, literally and figuratively.
I am a monkey, a brown monkey as White racists call my countrymen. I wish I could get rid of my racial prejudice but for now I am happy with hating. I am a brown monkey and am proud of the color I share with fellow South East Asians and a few other races. I wish my fellow mga Pilipino would stop being so colonial in mentality and embrace being brown (whitening stuff make people rich here). I am a brown monkey in a Pilipinas that embraces other cultures and now forgets its own. I am a brown monkey ranting in an essay filled with dissgression. Thank you.
3 things said:
accept. history is history. it is that we don't move on that we are left in the shattered remains of an ugly past. a lot of other colonized countries are doing okay now. why can't we do the same?
anyways, loving our being Filipino starts with accepting our country as it is...even with it's dirty past...we should not rant on what has happened....there is something i really want to say but can't spell out at the moment....anyways...let me borrow some words from Mr. Robinson: "Just keep moving forward!"., XD
(di ko alam kung tama yung quote ko...at di ko alam if i'm making any sense....)
you talk about countries that do okay after colonization, they do so by searching back to their roots for their identity, not by claiming a foreign culture as their history. The countries colonized that failed to find their roots didn't do too well, the countires that kept their heritage flourished.
I have accepted that the colonization happened, i just hate it. We will do okay if we search our real roots and fertilize the seeds we sowed before the colonizers sowed their own.
I love the Philippines as it is, if you are claiming I hate my country then we'd start feuding. I am ranting on what has happened because its wrong. Don't you hate it? Do you actually like the idea that we got colonized? Do you actually want this?
I love the Philippines so much that I search for our real roots. You said it yourself, it is an ugly past, and I'm doing my best to hate that past to create a better future. I don't think clinging to the Spanish would help us at all.
I see that we are in very different views about this, so I respect yours. I also see that we just keep negating each others statements, which means that we are getting nowhere, so lets just leave things like taht okay?
ok., :)
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